After I Was Scared To Discuss To God

That is the image that I can’t get out of my head. But it surely was additionally the second I used to be scared. Scared to speak to God as a result of I used to be scared to imagine what I felt him placing on my coronary heart.

Are you able to relate? Have you ever ever felt God prompting your coronary heart in direction of one thing? Feeling God nudging you to do or not do one thing? Sensing God chatting with you so loudly that you simply surprise if it’s even actual? Listening to His voice, however it virtually cautions you to take a step again for concern of what it’d imply?

One night whereas tenting final week, I headed right down to the seashore to look at the sundown. As you may see, it was a bit cloudy, however I made a decision to stay it out to see what image God would paint that night. Because the solar fell under the horizon, this lovely glow peaked by the breaks within the clouds. As I watched the final sliver disappear, as I shared on Fb final week, I felt God saying “New Beginnings”. This welled up many feelings in my coronary heart and to be trustworthy, it made me scared. I nonetheless battle with being scared to have hope once more. And I used to be scared to ask God what he meant by “new beginnings”. I used to be scared to be weak concern of getting my hopes up once more.

As I slowly made my approach again to the campground, my eyes full of tears and I whispered, “However I’m scared, God, I’m scared to ask what this implies.” I’m fearful of what He’ll ask of me. I’m fearful of what He’ll enable. Will I be capable to do it? Will I be capable to get by it? Will he equip me? However the second I advised him I used to be scared to ask, my physique was washed over with a peace and giddiness that I haven’t felt in a very long time. And I solely have to look again over my life and notice that sure, certainly, he’ll present!

My buddy, God doesn’t need us to be scared to speak to him! I’m ashamed to confess that I used to be. Is your religion actually that shallow, Kristin? The vulnerability I felt with my Father that evening created an angst, delivered to you by concern. And oh how unhealthy that’s – one thing I’m working fervently on in my very own life. I’m realizing how a lot concern I’ve been dwelling with – regardless that I by no means noticed myself as a fearful particular person! Sheesh Kristin, how may you not see it? It has crept into the depths of my coronary heart and like I stated, I’m diligently attempting to throw that concern proper again on the creator of concern himself. Enemy FLEE in Jesus’ identify. I’ve no clue what God has in retailer for me. I don’t know what my tomorrow holds and what new beginnings he has for me. However what I do know, is that simply because the solar units, the solar may even rise the subsequent morning. And in these sunrises, come new alternatives, new moments of development, new methods to glorify our God, new magnificence to behold.

I as soon as heard it stated, for those who’re not useless, you’re not finished. I do know, a bit morbid! I typically really feel like I’ve received 9 lives, however even that’s placing God right into a field. He has finished some loopy issues in my life, however you recognize what? He has finished some CRAZY issues in your life too. Such loopy issues that perhaps you’re scared to ask him what’s subsequent? However to that I say, that’s the place we have to reframe our pasts and see that regardless that experiences typically make us assume one thing unhealthy will occur, it doesn’t imply that it’s going to. Our God is Healer. Waymaker. Deliverer. Peacemaker. Hearer. Seer. and Doer.

Don’t be afraid to go to him. I used to be nervous to confess that I used to be scared to go to God and ask him what he meant. And perhaps you will have felt that approach too. Is God REALLY asking me to try this? What’s going to folks assume? What’s going to folks say? However once you come to him in concern, He’ll solely grip you even tighter and remind you of His truths that we now have no motive to concern:

Isaiah 41:10 says, “So don’t concern, for I’m with you; don’t be dismayed, for I’m your God. I’ll strengthen you and allow you to; I’ll uphold you with my righteous proper hand.”

So the subsequent time you see a sundown and really feel God prompting you in direction of one thing, or once you’re driving and also you hear a track on the radio and God is stirring your coronary heart in a approach you may’t deny, or once you’re mendacity in mattress worrying about what tomorrow holds, do not forget that every day is a brand new starting and you might be right here for it! He WANTS you right here for it. He has already geared up you for it. He’ll uphold you and strengthen you, my buddy. It doesn’t matter what life might convey, he’s received you.

And this, I’m preaching to myself, of us.