A Reward of God’s Grace Immediately!
Judging by the image, you possibly can about guess what take a look at consequence got here in at present!
Final week Tuesday I had my first bone marrow biopsy after my bone marrow transplant in January. I’ve had a number of earlier than, with my first bout of leukemia, however as at all times, there may be some angst main as much as the outcomes, not realizing if every part you went by way of, labored. I had 2 rounds of chemo earlier than my BMT, 4 days of excessive depth chemo and anti-rejection meds earlier than my transplant, after which acquired the transplant, and have been recovering ever since. It has been a loopy time of life, however we now have simply been praying this provides me MANY extra years of life!
Immediately I had an appointment on the most cancers clinic, however at the moment, we nonetheless had not heard again in regards to the take a look at to see if there was any signal of my sort of leukemia in my physique. The bone marrow take a look at outcomes that had are available in to date, all regarded good, however the “huge” one, we had been nonetheless ready on.
This afternoon, I acquired a name from my nurse coordinator and after I heard her voice, inside seconds, I acquired all sweaty. I didn’t notice I had been hanging on to that a lot emotion relating to this take a look at. I might inform by the sound of her voice that it was excellent news, and certain sufficient IT WAS! There’s not ONE inkling of any most cancers cell in my physique, that we all know of at this level! The quantity got here again at 0.00000!!! Zero is my new favourite quantity :).
I instantly began to cry. Not that we had any cause to suppose the most cancers was again, however there was MUCH reduction in listening to that it was clear. If I’m being sincere, I’m scared to be hopeful. The recollections from a yr in the past are all too recent, after I realized that I used to be relapsing, after going by way of 6 months of remedy. It was from one in every of these assessments, that we realized the chemo didn’t absolutely work. I’ve been actually engaged on making an attempt to launch this to God, and it may be a each day problem, whereas nonetheless making an attempt to get better from the transplant itself. It’s at all times “in your face”, so how do you not let it management you? One thing, like I stated, I’m challenged with each day.
And one factor I’ve to imagine too, is who God is. Sure, He allowed me to relapse and undergo a journey we by no means noticed coming, and but God can also be a HEALER. He has proven me that point and TIME once more in my life, and but I nonetheless battle to see Him absolutely as Healer too. That’s who my God is. And I wish to belief that He’ll heal me as soon as and for all from this leukemia. However like I stated, I’m scared to be hopeful. And so we simply entrust every step of this journey to Him, trusting His guarantees, realizing that what He’ll lead us to, He’ll lead us by way of.
Immediately was a reminder that my God is just not solely Healer, however Supplier and Waymaker. We don’t deserve these outcomes. It’s all grace. We don’t deserve His guiding hand, however He continues to increase it to us. We don’t deserve His therapeutic, however He continues to point out us His mighty energy and sovereignty. Please be a part of us in praising God for this victory at present and should it proceed to spur our household on as we belief Him with the subsequent steps of this journey, but additionally relaxation realizing God is therapeutic. And to imagine that in our hearts too.
Once more, thanks for persevering with to stroll this journey with us! We pray that indirectly, you will notice the goodness of God in your personal story too, as you watch it unfold. There can be laborious occasions and even struggling, however the Lord offers and takes away, and BLESSED BE HIS NAME!
